I worry about my future

I worry About my future. Because it hasnt unfold, yet time tells all is what i`m told. I get sick worrying day after day what may happen that day. Worried about my future is what i normally do. From Getting good grades to what i want to do. Truth be told i dont know what to do. I simply dont know what  i want to do. I worry about what classes i am going to take. Is it right for me? What can i do now that may help get me further more. Moneitizing you tube i have held off. Fearful of what others think is something to me that is normal. How do i make money without charging to much? Oh what to do, oh what to do. What should i do. Slowly and quietly thinking if ways to earn money, need it to help out. So what should i do if i cant. I dont think im good enough. I`ve been on deviant art longer and i thought i produced good art. when i look at others i realise im not the best i can be. Though i can draw quickly, i dont seem to be good enough to stand with them. Their more artistic and much better than i am. Though i smile. when im alone i cry, because to me my future looks a little bit grim. Guess music`s been my hobby and i like it very well. I calm my self down and count what i can do. I`m running out of space, i`m running out of room. Gotta sell some stuff away, gotta make some extra dough. Try to do comissions though no one will come. I wind up doing comissions for free. Try making a game, while i`m good at that. The game plots and twist i`m not very good at that. It`ll suck i know it will, better make the game free because i suck at it. The plan for a server seems so far away, it probably wont happen but even if so. Who would pay to play it though? It has no pvp it stands by itself. It sorta like sims with outerspace as well. I only won a contest once and it was when i was younger and they wanted me to pay so i could get my thousand dollars. All so i could afford to give it to my mom for her transplant. Sadly i found out it was a scam. Doing crafts with my mom might just work but it wont be long until she winds up being gone. Patreons been open for oh so long no one will donate to me. I need the money bad. The cotton candy business might just work but how long can i keep it up until i begin to show my laziness and just fail. Should i get a job? I dont think it will work out then again i might get a job. It may be to hard, to easy or i might just fail along. Maybe i can make that app with my dad i wanted to. I could make ringtones and make parodies and sell it on itunes, but would it be good enough and if so who would buy? I could sell old drawlings but who would want thoose little old things i keep in a box. I could do a bakery sell, but i `d probably wind up selling nothing or making food that fell apart. I could make a mod but theres no money in that and everyone`s done something cool so there`s no ideas left. I could use adsense and make money off the blog though i still have to wait till july to use it finally. but would you all come here and look at my blog with all of thoose ads. I suck at everything i do.Loosing my hope, slowly giving up. I Start Slipping into depression and making myself sad i click on a video. With a Sound and a light pops on hope slowly comes back And All through the video with ups and downs. Cussing people who are laughing all around. I smile as i start to get back up. Remembering a old thing once sung. Dont Loose Hope! Your life makes a difference whether you know it or not. Dont give up! Keep fighting on. Whats the point? The point is its your life and you make the choice. Easy or difficult your life is up to you. Dont let others walk all over you. Go make a difference and keep growing huge. Your heart is big enough to keep marching on. If you fall down just get back up. And remember practice makes perfect so dont ever give up~!
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Hey guys hope you liked the lyrics of "I worry about my future" I did hand write. No parody currently doesnt have actual music.